They tore my old dorm down today.
Well… I don’t know that it happened today, but it happened fairly recently – recently enough so that the equipment was still there and only the elevator shaft was still standing. Lonely. Like some sort of monument to what used to be there.
I didn’t know it was going to happen. I wish I had. I’d have gone to take photos before it came down.
I’m pretty upset about it. And it surprises me that I feel this upset about it… it was, after all, just a building. And it’s not like I spent a whole lot of time there, preferring, instead, to be at my friends’ dorm on the other side of campus (which is, at least for the time being, still standing).
But this is where it really started for me.
I moved there, after the summer, not knowing what to expect and, really, seeing it as a means to an end since my plans were to get married to my then boyfriend right after college. Things didn’t work out for us… we broke up while I was sitting at my desk in that dorm (he’d gone to college in Indiana).
I made friends. Not thanks to that dorm… in fact none of my friends lived in that dorm. But that dorm meant I did not live with my parents, I did not have a curfew, and I was free to come and go as I pleased.
I had internet access again. And I used it. Oh god did I use it.
While living there, I reconnected and had an (albeit short lived) affair with 1.0… who broke my heart while I sat in my desk chair (ironically the SAME desk chair I got dumped in at the beginning of the year) in January of 2002.
I can’t tell you how many dates picked me up from that parking lot and walked me to that door. Seriously. I lost count. I don’t even remember all of their names (because not everyone I go out with is worthy of a nickname).
This was the dorm room I lived in when I lost an entire research paper (that was stored on a floppy drive) hours before it was due – I had to stay up all night recomposing it from memory so that I could turn it in on time.
I consequently bought a new computer the next day that had a CD Burner (cutting edge technology in 2001).
This was where, after coming in from a Psychology exam, I watched (on TV) the Twin Towers fall on September 11, 2001. And where I listened as all of the planes that were in the vicinity of Louisville were grounded (and flew directly overhead as we were very close to the airport).
This is the dorm room where I found (after three years of no contact) Emperor Slade/Buttface, in the chat room that had replaced HotelChat.
And the dorm room where I spent hours on the phone with him. And 1.0.
I lived in this dorm room while I dated The Professor. This meant I didn’t spend a whole lot of time in that room, as I was either traveling up and down the road to Bowling Green, or sleeping in a random hotel off of Newburg Road, but when we weren’t driving a lot, or that week when he was on some Debate trip, that’s where I was.
This is the dorm room where I learned my real mother’s name. And where I was given the ring she’d requested be put away for me. And it’s the dorm room where I struggled, after finding all of that out, with what to do with the information. Ultimately I decided to do nothing – I regret that now.
I still have the bedspread that went on that bed. I still have (and use) the green Yaffa blocks that sat in the corner.
I lived here when I made my first (secret) trip to New York City in 2002. Partly to see 1.0 (who had already dumped me by that time – but I still had the tickets, so I used them), but mostly to see the city. The trip was terrifying… it was just a few months after 9/11 and with the new, tighter security measures in place, I didn’t know what I was doing. Granted, it was also the first time I’d flown alone so I probably wouldn’t have been very good at it before that happened either. My parents STILL do not know that happened.
My dad still has my old refrigerator in his garage. He uses it to store cold drinks for mowing days.
It wasn’t all fun and games…
The kitchen was three floors down… so I almost never used it.
The Spring Break security staff was very lax… so lax that they let my parents in without keys (and they were the LAST people I wanted to see) in 2002.
I remember fighting for toilets (because there were only three on our floor) and for showers (there were only two on the entire floor).
But I also remember looking at the showerhead every morning… perplexed and intimidated by the “self breast exam instructions” that someone had hung up there. I also wondered why I would ever need to do that, since I barely had any to speak of in those days, and they were regularly getting mauled by one of said boyfriends.
Oh and I hated having to wear flip flops in the shower because no one wants athlete’s foot.
And how my shower caddy never really dried out very well since it had to travel back and forth and eventually molded.
But at least my dorm room was next to the bathroom.
And the stairwell.
RIP Wellness Hall.
Guess I missed you more than I was willing to admit.